Draw Ball.
I cannot remember the details, but I think I dreamt that my Director sacked me in my dreams.
For a moment, I thought it was real.
And then, I woke up and told Darling about it.
What a dream!
Even when I am dreaming, it’s still associated with work.
Work has really taken a big part of my life.
I have hit my target, and tomorrow, I’m gonna draw ball!
Please pray I pick the ball with the biggest amount on it.
HUAT AR!
Our First Half-Day Incentive.
Kushin-Bo has some promotion going on right now.
Think it’s about 20 bucks for lunch.
So cheap!
We still thought it’s gonna be $40+ per head.
We’re the leading team for now, and we’re already hit 100% of our target.
I wonder where we’re going for our next half-day incentive…… hmmm, should be The Line!
You Love MEE?
The feeling of seeing him polishing off everything from his plate, gives me the satisfaction and motivation to do even better next time.
And when he casually tells his Mum that the prawns I brought back are very fresh, it brings a smile on my face.
I love it when both of us dress like aunty and uncle, and heads the the wet market early in the morning to pick out fresh prawns and veggies.
Next, I am planning to prepare soup dumplings and cereal prawns ( yes, we’re both prawn lovers!).
Really, it’s so easy to prepare Mee Siam and Mee Rebus ( this one taste better!), with the help of those pre-pack paste from Prima Taste. Just gotto follow the instruction well and tadah, you are ready to tuck in!
I guess, if my cousins or sister sees this, they will be very surprised. ‘Cos I don’t cook at home. Actually, I enjoy the process of cooking. But I don’t enjoy when I cook, and I am the only one who eats it. Luckily, Darling’s mum helped me abit in the kitchen, else I really don’t know where to begin with.
Glad Darling and his family doesn’t mind my cooking.
So happy!
♥♥♥
Uh-oh, I’m In Trouble!
Later, I’m going to cook Mee Rebus for dinner!
I just went to the wet market alone, and came back with fresh prawns, beansprouts, green chillies, and fishcakes.
Plucking the ends of the beansprout is really therapeutic and reminds me of my childhood days when my Mum will make me and my siblings to pluck the beansprouts. I remember I used to hate doing it, but now, I kinda miss that moment where 3 of us will gather around and do something together. Come to think of it, I really had a very happy ( well, most of the time) and memorable childhood.
And today, while plucking the sprouts, I feel very blessed to be loved and to love a man who will always finish up the food I cook for him. Even if my rice is soggy, like porridge. He never fails to remind me of that when I tell him I wanna cook for him.
HAHAHA!
Anyway, you must be wondering what trouble I got myself into, right?
We saw a guy jogging at night and he started telling me how onz he was into jogging 6 months ago. But now, he has stopped and people around him says he look very 幸福 ( ahem, means he looks “prosperous”) now. And then, he dropped the biggest bomb last night and that’s
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” Let’s start jogging at night.”
ZzZzZzZzZzZzZzZz
He must be joking.
So, I ignored him.
But no, he wasn’t!
Later at night, when I was about to doze off to lalaland, he mentioned about it again. And this time, his tone sounded more persistent, and that got me very scared. I ignored again, and faster sleep.
I thought he will forget after a night’s sleep.
But no!!!!!
This time, he volunteer to buy me running shoes voucher ‘cos we both pantang la ( cannot buy shoe, else we will “run” away from each other!). Sibeh jialat la! People who knows me well, will know I DREAD running/jogging. I rather go rollerblading la, swimming la, hulla-hooping la, but not running.
I tried to convince him to give up the idea by telling him, ” Ok, I will run, only if you quit smoking.”
Guess what he reply me with?
” It’s always easier to start something, than to quit something.”
Win liao lor.
Don’t know who invented this quote.
And then he will say something like, ” Ok, I will quit…………………… buying.”
hurhurhur.
And then the ultimate question, ” If you love me, then you will accompany me to jog. Do you love me?”
This copycat ah, use my line!
Dear Lord, if you hear my prayers, can you make it rain every night?
Thank You.
Edited to post:
Darling gave me 99 marks for my Mee Rebus! Minus 1 mark because I never add “tau gua”. Next, I am going to ask my Aunt how to cook cereal prawn.
Modern-Day 唐诗.
I was out at the kopitiam having breakfast together with Darling, before going to the wet market to buy the ingredients for our Mee Siam.
After waiting for a decade for the aunty to come take our order for our drinks, I decided not to wait anymore.
So I was in the queue at the drink stall and I saw a poster pasted on the wall that amuses me alot and I kept reciting it like machiam 唐诗. Darling thinks I am crazy.
It says:
说了又不懂,
不懂又不问,
问了又不做,
做了也做错,
错了又不认,
认了又不服,
不服又不说.
To loosely translate, it means:
Tell you, also you don’t understand,
Don’t understand, also don’t ask,
Ask already, also don’t do,
Do already, also do wrong,
Do wrong, still don’t admit,
Admit liao, also buay song ( read: not happy),
Buay song, also don’t voice out.
FUNNY ANOT?
I have not worked very long in this society ( I’m not going to tell the years, in case you are guessing my age!), but I have seen many different pattern of how people work. Some are very hardworking, but they just work aimlessly, without knowing what they will get at the end of the day. They are known as The Cow to me – Very hardworking and still can milk them to death.
Some use their mouth to talk/ brag /give order/ supervise or to put it in a nicer way, to delegate the work to other people, but if you ask them to do, they can’t. 纸上谈军, don’t you think?
There are also people who always whine to the whole world that they have alot of shit to clear, yet they take 2 hours lunch break, knock off on the dot, keep taking mc, keep checking my blog facebook. So what happens to the “shit” after a week? It’s still there. So what do I call such people? They are the Tai-Chi Master.
And then, there’s this joker from my ex-company who doesn’t know her work, even after 1 year with the company. And she doesn’t bother to ask. Eventually, she was posted to do a less stressful work – The Admin, who play game and watch movie online during office hours. So many of us have seen it, but we’re not so gossipy to report her to my ex-boss. Well, it’s her choice to want waste her youth, doing nothing. And besides, the ex-boss has her own eyes to see. If she still don’t sense it, then may I ask, what’s she doing in office then?
Suddenly, it reminded me of the time when I first started working. I was a Assistant Merchandiser in the largest local textile company. Back then, I was quiet, and shy. I was afraid of making mistake, don’t dare to do this, don’t dare to do that, don’t even dare to go toilet. And it doesn’t help when my work environment is surrounded with alot of “loud” aunties and Supervisors who has a habit of shouting across the room, letting everyone know your mistake. But I was glad to join this company because I had a strict mentor and the thing I remember most about him is when he scolded me and drilled this into my head numerous times a day, ” 不懂就问, 不懂就问!”
Initially, I had a phobia of it but somehow, I had to force myself to ask my mentor, even if he shows me a black face. I rather clarify now, then to assume and get the whole matter wrong. My previous line of work cannot afford to make alot of mistake. One late shipment means they can’t start the production until my stuff arrive next week. And it’ll add cost again when the worker gotto work OT to finish the work.
Anyway, I think whoever the person ( must be the Boss lah!) pasted the thing on the wall, wants his people to know this and most probably, to remind those without initiative to be more pro-active. Hopefully his/her workers understands it and someone will take our drink order as promptly as possible, instead of making us wait for so long.
I am thinking.
What went through the workers’ mind when they see the poster their Boss paste?
Will they get this subtle, yet very strong hint?
And again, this poster reminded me of something 2 years ago.
My Mum had just passed away then.
I didn’t feel like going to work. I wanted to take another few weeks’ leave. But I can’t. There’s too much work to be done. I was feeling really down and was glad that my khakis in office were being very supportive, except my ex-boss. My khakis had helped me go through one of my darkest period. This, I will never forget. But the one thing that I can never forget is when my ex-boss kept asking me into her office EVERYDAY to ask how I feel AND ask me to smile. ‘Cos apparently, in her words, I affect my team’s mood and I wasn’t being fair to them.
I just look at her, and I saw the cold-blooded animal looking back at me. I have no energy to explain, no energy to rebuke, and no energy to tell her what I wanted to say.
If I have another chance, I would say straight in her face calmly, ” Yvonne, you have an old mother at home whom I remember you told me you love her alot. I will wait for the day when it happen, and I’ll remind you to smile too.”
And never will I forget the day she ask me out for lunch, just me and her, at this eatery opposite Fuji Xerox building. And when she start saying that hurtful word which Iwon’t say here, my tear just fall uncontrollably. My food just arrived, but I couldn’t eat. Not because I have no appetite. But because I was bawling so terribly, I had difficulty catching my breathe.
At that moment, I know I won’t be faithful to this person anymore. I don’t hate her, but I won’t see her as a friend either.
My good friend M* gave me a good idea and helped me end my misery.
I printed it out in paper, in the biggest font and bold it, and pasted it at a place where it’s very visible to her when she passed by my seat to the pantry to get her coffee.
” I AM NOT UNHAPPY. I AM JUST NOT SMILING.”
I know she saw it.
Because she kinda stopped in her pace for a moment, shocked, and then walked to the pantry and never ask me in anymore.
Speaking of smiling. I remember that was this lady, eh aiyah forgot her name la, I think she’s the wife of one of the Managers.
She wanted to talk to us individually and then she told me the art of smiling.
” FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT.”
If this is what the company’s culture is, which is to be fake, then frankly, that’s not the place I would like to be.
And till date, I have never regret the decision to leave.
Boy, I am so glad I made this move.
Ok, enuff’ of the wordy post. I am going to watch my show.
I can’t upload the Mee Siam pictures we cooked earlier on, because I don’t have the cable. I’m at Darling’s place now. But I can tell you this, our Mee Siam is super duper delicious! I’ll load the pictures soon.
Oh yes, and also my team incentive lunch yesterday at Kuishin-Bo. And it’s really shiok to work only half day on a Friday, although my mind is still at work! So many interviews to coordinate leh!
It’s only 2nd week of the month, and we have already hit our target. Hmm, where shall we go for next lunch? I think the girls were thinking about Shang’s The Line.
Ok, back to my show.
Bye!
Worrywort.
My chest felt very suffocating this afternoon.
Not just that, my heart beat very fast. It’s exactly how I felt a few months ago in my ex-company.
Maybe I am too stressed at work?
Actually, my Boss never stress me at all leh. In fact, she never once micro-manage me (thank God!) and she will text me once in a while to praise me. Frankly, I haven’t felt so encouraged for the longest time. Back in the previous company, people expect you to produce result just because you are a Senior Consultant. Just because you are a performer. And when the sales figure dip by abit, they start breathing down on you, start to question about your productivity, start to micro-manage people.
Aren’t they tired of irritating people like that?
Anyway, I think I am the one being too hard on myself and set too much expectation.
Hmmm, I guess this is one of the characteristics of a Leo.
Full of pride and ego to fail.
Yes, I will NOT allow it to fail, and that’s why I am working extremely hard.
And so far, I am rather satisfied with my result…… but can be better.
I know I am capable of achieving the result I want.
I just need one breakthrough!
Darling feels maybe I think too much, worry too much. And that’s why I keep having migraine and now, anxiety.
I guess I have to agree with him.
Close friends around me calls me worrywort.
I tend to worry too much and sometimes, my imagination gets out of proportion and I’ll start asking alot of stupid questions which can irritate people. I just can’t help it leh. I guess I just need that assurance to calm my nerve.
These days, our phone conversation at night is always about my work. Last night, Darling wanted to hastily end the conversation ( this fellow really know when to siam when he senses trouble! humph!) and I was upset and raised my voice at him.
“Because you grumble too much.”
Maybe he is right.
I nag too much, worry too much, grumble too much. And I certainly don’t want these to strain our happy relationship.
I should learn to relax, learn to be more bo-chup and learn to breatheeeeeeeeeeeeee. And of course, stop the bad habit of eating at my work desk. I really should take a breather and let my mind rest for that 1 hour.
Lately, I came across a certain blogger’s diary that her Dad passed away from a heart attack after experiencing chest pain. And then my imagination start to flow and suddenly, I feel I have chest pain too. I better stop reading such sad entries!
Being the worrywort I am, I went to see doctor earlier on. And he told me it’s due to stress and also, probably the milk tea I had this afternoon ( caffaein!) that’s causing the anxiety. Luckily, I am not those person who needs her coffee everyday. In fact, I don’t take coffee. I only need my orange juice!
I don’t know why, but I have been such a workaholic these days. Last time, I will automatically shut off once I stepped out of office. But now, I’ll check my work email at home, instead of watching my Gossip Girl. When I am on medical leave, I work from home ( I wish we can work from home! No need to wake up early to makeup, blow the hair). Even on my way to work in the train, I will think of how to attract candidates or what kind of candidate would be suitable for this particular order that I have.
Maybe like what F* said.
” When you like your boss, your company, your job, you will be very willing to work hard.”
I have found my motivation.
Have you?
ps: I asked my Doctor how to relieve stress and anxiety. And he asked me, ” Do you believe in God?” I guess I will start praying every night, like how I used to do when I was a kid.
Another Random Post.
Lately, I have been rather aunty.
Well, can’t blame me since I am stucked with a guy who knows NTUC sells that pack of ice-cream cheaper by 20 cents.
LOL!
Anyway, as I was doing my supermarketing, I picked a box of Mee Siam paste. I turned to the back of the box and read the instruction. Hmmmm, seems easy to prepare leh. So guess what? Me and Darling are gonna cook together this Sunday ( actually, he just say he’s gonna use EYE power instead. zzz). Let’s hope we don’t burn down the kitchen, hehe!
Since we’re on the topic of food, let me show you my simple lunch the other day. I’m the kind of girl who’s not particular about lunch, about food. As long as it’s edible, I’m happy.
I got ‘em from Daiso.
These cute stuffs miraculously make my lunch very appetising.
Yes, if you haven’t already noticed, I am a sucker for all these boliao, but pretty things!
Sometimes, I also don’t know why I buy them for? Better not let DFX know. He will nag at me again.
And something totally random.
Here’s a picture I took with one of Darling’s favourite woman girl ( he has a lot of favourite girls la. Like his Mum? His sister? Jeanette Aw? Lynn Poh? And of course, yours truely MEEEEEEEEEEEE!)
You know my hand was on her chest and I felt her heart beating very fast.
And I asked Darling, ” Haha, don’t know why Diana’s heart beat so fast?”
And guess what he replied?
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” Because she saw a monster.”
(-__-)”"”
This kind of boyfriend also got lor, you tell me where to find?
Okie, I am going to doze off.
I am soooooooooo blardy tired!
Bye.
家好月圆.
I know I am abit slow, and everyone around me ( especially my sis and aunt!) has been talking about this show.
Moonlight Resonance.
I was still mesmerised with my Chuck Bass, and didn’t bother to check out this show.
And just last month, I brought my DVD player to Darling’s place and at the same time, grabbed some DVDs while making my way out to the boy.
I am hooked!
It’s so niceeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Anyway, I have not finished it and I am determined to clear it by next week.
This show is about kinship, family politics ( ahem, yes, even at your own home) and the ups and downs the family goes through together.
Speaking of family.
If your defination of a perfect, happy family means a set of normal parents with a few normal kids running around the house doing normal things together, then yes, I don’t come from a rosy family.
But I do have a very doting Granny, and a very understanding Aunt & Uncle Jack ( and my cousins! we’re very close to one another) who will always be there for me.
My family works totally different from Darling’s family.
Our family shows their concern by shouting and screaming ( I guess they’re worried, that’s why that have to raise their voice?), whereas Darling’s mum is ever so patient to all her kids.
Sometimes, I look at how Darling’s family treat him, I feel….envious?
Someday, when I have my own kids, I will be like Darling’s mum. I will hug them and tell them they’re so pretty like angels. And I will kiss them every morning and night.
Lately, we have been going out for dinner, together with Darling and family.
It’s been such a long time since I feel this warmth.
Really, sometimes, I think Darling brings alot of hope and happiness in my life.
Ok, I’m going to wash off my mask and call the naughty boy. His monitor is spoilt and he can’t use his computer. I bet he must be very bored. Anyway, we were at IMM last evening, and I wanted to get him one for Christmas gift, but he still wanna walk around and compare.
Goodness, I don’t know how he can survive a week without internet!
I know I cant.
Golden Finger.
By right, I should be home resting, but there’s so much work to be done!
End up, I worked from home, checking my emails from 9am till now ( 7ish!).
I wanted to watch my Gossip Girl leh.
In between, I went to see doctor.
Just one day alone, I have coordinated 9 interviews ( with 1 potential closure. Or maybe 2? I just hope we can wrap it all up by next week!).
Please dont think I’m complaining. In fact, I enjoy being busy. Sometimes, I can get sooooooo busy until no time to go for toilet break, no time for small, idle chats, no time to surf other sites.
I have morphed into a busy bee!
Each time my phone rings, I get very excited. Always hoping it’s a call from my clients or my Darling ( these days, he gets a kick from pretending to be a crazy candidate looking for Director/CEO position! haha). Actually, each time before I pick up my call, I always hope my clients would bring me good news, like arranging interviews, or better still, offering my candidates the role. That would totally make my day!
Hahaha, I sound very 夸张 right?
The other day, when my candidate requested for the weekend to consider the role, my heart went pom-pom-tiao over the weekend too. And I shared with my Manager that I was worried. And at the same time, excited.
My Manager looked at me, wide-eyed and said,” You work in this line for so long liao, you still will get so excited ah?”
OF COURSE!
I still think it was just yesterday I started in this industry.
Still fresh, still blur, there’s still alot of things to learn.
In fact, I face different challenges, different people everyday.
It’s never a bore.
I hope this “fire” will burn forever and I will remain the fighter.
Anyway, I think my work place’s fengshui is very good for me.
My “Golden Finger” is back!
Whatever I touch, I clinch the deal. Ok, most of the time la.
We must be humble right?
Hahaha.
I feel a sense of achievement, because all the clients that I have, is done through my OWN telemarketing or other sources.
And I know my client base will grow!
Okie, no time to blog more.
I gotto run to meet my Darling liao!
Okok, before I go, one word of advice.
Love what you do, do what you love.
Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
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